Some shocking news

Pretty much time have past since the last update, though I can't tell it's been quiet down here - in my life, I mean.

For a quick summary, I have considered four different business ideas, being:
- the development of a desktop application for small business, partially sponsored by my angel friend;
- the (possibly) web-based project with one of my ex-Starcrafter friends;
- some piece of the low-level technology, the idea initially offered by its inventor (and co-founder) as a spyware, properly converted into a time management monitoring complex for the corporate market;
- some sort of the VoIP business, like if I install some VoIP hardware to the client, he will be able to use the Voice IP sitting at home, and I'll get some share of his payments.

Everything was fine, like I have finished the documentation for the first project, have come to a partial agreements about the second and the fird, and invented a nice business model for the last one.
Then, suddenly, a thunderclap! My angel friend has been.. um.. robbed? "thrown", as we use to describe this? some other term, describing a money loss because of some ill-intending jackass?
Anyway, he have lost some big sum of money. Good news was it was not big enough to knock him out of business, while the bad news was - he had to freeze all his current side-projects (like, as you could notice, my first and the most important project) so that he can gather his funds together in his mainstream business and try to recoup the loss.

Perfect.

So, at the first day I was doing the most natural thing for such a situation. Well, at last it is natural enough down here. I was drunk, asleep, then drunk again. Pretty though day, it was.
The next two days I was trying to gather my thoughts into something resembling my usual state of creativity, by playing StarCraft hardcore with my friends. And it helped much more than just laying drunk, you know. :)
Why so much stress, you could ask? Hey it was merely one project, one from the four I was intended to do, you could say.
Well, yes, it was.
What's more, it was the only project with some from-the-start funding. I mean, all the other ones CAN generate some profit, and I am sure at least one WILL. In time.
And as time goes by, I need something to eat, to pay the rent, to spend my time online, etc. etc. And now that's pretty tough kind of situation, being left with no income at all, and a bunch of possibilities to generate it at some distant point at the future.

So that's what I mostly think of right now - how can I make some bucks to support myself, so that I won't become a lifeless corpse by the time my projects will make me rich. :)

So far, I'm positive enough that I can do that. Well, I'm mostly sure. Yeah.. No kidding here.. Wheew.. ;)

Taking off

Yesterday I've gor fired.
Finally.

It was an interesting experience, watching myself from the inside, when I heard that. You're fired. Yes, I've felt a lot of happiness and relief, yet.. some dark side of my inner being was scared to death, screaming aloud and thrashing about with it's eyes goggled. What the hell, how can I be fired? Damn, damn, damn!

Well, it was at least understandable, if not expected. Provided I've never been taught to work on myself instead of working on someone, provided the "finish the school / university / get a stable job / save some money / perhaps buy an appartement or build a house / die" lifestyle is still widespread in the post-USSR area, being the only lifestyle possible for several generations.
Even more, quite a big part of my self-respect was always based on my income. On my ability to generate an income, to be precise. And when you have a stable job, this ability is easily measured and is quite reassuring.

Well, no more easily-measured income for me. Big deal. :)

Anyway, by today my feelings and thoughts are much more set up, and I'm looking forward to do some actual work now. :)

Wish me luck, guys! :)